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I'm continuing to write about the things I've changed in my life to become happier and more balanced person. Today's post goes a little bit further into my past and to the days of beginning to transform my life into better one. The post is about nutrition and taking healthier habits. (Also along with a little bit about my personal history. If you like totally happy & joyful stories this one ain't for you since I don't have particularly happy past :)
When the left photo was taken 6-years ago I was miserable in many ways. I had gone through quite a lot some difficult shit and mentally I was totally lost. I was depressed and didn't see anything much worth living to exist in this world. I had a tendency of comforting myself with food since I've always enjoyed tasty food a lot and been good at cooking something delicious. And back then eating something that tasted good was nearly the only thing that made life worth living for. So I ate. I ate a lot and plenty of truly unhealthy stuff.
At that time I had very very little knowledge of nutrition and how should you fuel the body the "right way" nor was I even interested in that. I didn't care much at all about anything. Until one day I just got enough of being a doormat to other people and talking down myself all the time. Got enough of being called unworthy, fat, ugly, useless etc. and it wasn't just me telling myself those things. That's rather what I heard most of my life as a kid and teen from others and that eventually became what I thought about myself and thus I let people continuously treat me as I was worthless which got me more and more miserable and depressed.
I was heavily bullied during my school years and yet the worst bully I've ever had in my life was someone I had to live with under the same roof nearly to my young adulthood years. Then he died but his words echoed in my head quite a long time even after his demise and those words defined me to be unworthy, useless fat and ugly.
Eventually I just got enough of the bad legacy he and all the bullies left me to carry. I decided I want to make my life better and that I deserve that. It started with learning to value myself, quitting all the toxic relationships and beginning to take care of my body for the first time in my life. I quit the emotional eating. I also got my asthma diagnosed and medication to it so I was able to start going to gym. Along starting gym and having an aim of making my physical condition better I started to get interested in nutrition and what does human body actually need for metabolism to work properly and how to give your body all that it needs. How to physically feel energetic and take good care of yourself. At that time I also tried the first time the Forever Living products and started using the amazing dietary supplements the company offers in addition to top notch cosmetics. (I still use the products and soon I'll have my own business with those!)
I got interested in nutritional value of the food I eat and cook. How to make something delicious - and good for you. Instead of cooking with the "traditional" habits taught to restaurant chefs. (Basically what's done in the most of the restaurants is using plenty of fat, salt and sugar to make the food tasty. Restaurant dishes simply are mostly incredibly unhealthy.)
That's one of the biggest reasons I didn't want to continue my career as a chef. I don't want anymore to cook dishes that merely indulge the taste buds and sicken the body in the long run but to cook dishes that indulge the taste buds + promote health and wellbeing of the body. I left and started seeking a new career path matching better with my interests. Finally I have found one!
I'll be writing more about what eating the right kinda stuff does to your body and metabolism...And I'll also post some easy recipes of dishes that are good for you and to your taste buds! PS. I'm definitely not someone obsessing over clean eating and going to gym! I still do love pizza, beer, wine and junk food overall and having all that occasionally definitely doesn't harm anyone in my opinion (:
What I want to say in the end of this post is that you are not defined by your past if you don't allow it to be so. You can break free and get up from there no matter what's your starting point.
It's always a long journey but the journey of pursuing your dreams and becoming the happiest version of you that you can be is worth the ride. This post was quite a long one. Thank you for reading if you read my text until this last sentence!
~Hopefully you'll have a fantastic weekend!~
♥-Tiina-♥
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